Like Tears in the Rain...

The Engagement date was approaching soon, and preparations were in full swing. The engagement is supposed to be held from the brides side and both the families decided that it would be held at Vanessa's native. Her uncle booked the finest of the resort at a beach location. He did all the planning himself as he would have done for his own daughter. It was no secret that Vanessa was the darling of the entire family. Almost all of her relatives at her native were called upon, and 200 odd people from Vivan's side. With each passing day, she felt more and more trapped in her own thoughts. On one hand her family was putting so much efforts for her and on the other, she felt deeply out of place. She  didn't  know what to do, she was expecting a miracle to happen, something to show her the way, someone to tell her what is right and what is wrong, but she could find neither. She was 25 and it felt right to marry at that age. Vivan belonged to a nice family, he was well ed...

Soon after, the engagement date and the wedding date got fixed. Both the mothers made appointments with their trusted astrologers and matched the kundalis, luckily the match was good and both Vanessa and Vivan scored  23 and a half, which is considered to be good, on a scale of 36 where the minimum score must be 18. Her mom was in seventh heaven since her only daughter/ child was going to get married. Vanessa was happy too. But the thing that really bothered her was that will she and Vivan be compatible with each other; because as a girl her needs were different, maybe a lil different from the average girl. She was way too sensitive and emotional and she needed a guy who was willing to take her responsibility. It was not easy being with her, coz she needed someone to be there for her 24*7. She needed a guy who could listen to her chattering all day long, solve her troubles as if they were his own, help her with her daily routine, be there for her forever and always. And most...

July 1, 2012 marked the beginning of a new chapter in Vanessa's and Vivan's life. They both liked each other and had gathered their families to make the announcement of their marriage. Vanessa was pretty excited as a girl whose marriage got fixed would be. She wore a green chiffon saree, and co incidentally even Vivan turned up in a green kurta. Her mom was very enthusiastic about the whole affair since this was the first and the last marriage that would take place in their family. Her maternal uncles were also present for the occasion who are more or less the pillar of strength for her mom. Vanessa  couldn't  help but notice how happy everyone was for her. The program started at around noon. It was a small little ceremony with her and Vivan giving brief introductions about themselves and later their families declaring their marriage. In Marathi this program is called 'Supari phodne', with the maternal uncle of the girl coming forward and making the announcem...

Vanessa met her Mr. Right the first time on 28th April 2012 at Carter Road CCD, Bandra. He came along with his mom while she too was with her mum. The first time she saw him, she thought he was tall and thin. He didn't look exactly like his picture. He was a lot leaner. The four sat at one table, and the day being a Saturday, the place was jam packed with youngsters all around.  Their  mothers started the conversation and they both did not really look at each other. After a while  their  mothers left them to take a stroll along the garden and they both were left to themselves. No sooner  their  mums left them, he apologized for having remained quite all the time. He said that he was a bit nervous since it was the first time he was meeting someone. She laughed it off and said it was alright and that even she was a little apprehensive. He introduced himself and gave a detailed description of his work and life. After that they both were on a crack, they...

She was experiencing a feeling which she  couldn't  really explain. She felt cheated, used, and thrown away like a trash. It was a  feeling so despicable. Her thoughts and her feelings continued to torture her, night and day. Was it all just an imagination? Did it really exist? Was anyone truly in Love with her? Questions such as these ran randomly through her head and she searched for answers but found none. No matter how hard she tried to see him as a wretched person, she just  couldn't . She  couldn't  believe that he lied to her, that all that happened was a part of a big game. How could someone who once meant the world to you could suddenly go so far away? She felt anger, immense anger towards that person but it  didn't  last more than a moment. She was surrounded with all the words that he once said, all the promises he once made, now broken into a thousand pieces. The question that most tormented her is Why? Why did this happen ...

She wanted to make a vow, a promise to herself. Never to succumb to any mans words. She had been fooled, cheated and along the way, been hurt, very deeply. She  didn't  know what made them do it, what made them break her heart every single time. Could it be vulnerability? Possibly yes. There are some questions of the heart which no one could answer, not even her heart. Despite always being a kind lover, a faithful one what did she get in return. Nothing but, emptiness of the heart. Every time her heart continued to bear the burnt and become shallow, day after day.  She hoped that she could gather herself and emerge stronger. Not needing a man for her needs. She had always hoped that her man could probably give her the happiness that she was so longing for. But alas, she was wrong. Happiness  is found within and not outside . Her experience had made her so bitter, that even if she wanted to, she could not think happy thoughts about Love. It was all that she had...

 This guy whom she loved so much, so dearly, and now he was no longer in her life. She just  couldn't  understand the ways of the universe. If they were not meant to be, then why did the universe bring them together. He said he loved her, and she believe him. But what she found amusing is that despite both of them loving each other  why couldn’t the world let them be together. She  doesn't  really blame him that they were apart. She was sure that he must have done everything in his capacity to keep them together, but as destiny had it, they had to part ways. She was perfectly happy with him. He filled in the voids in her life, soothed the wounds that were left open in the past. When she was with him, everything made sense, her past, her present and also her future. He was the soul mate she was in search of all these years. Just being with him gave her immense happiness. She wished she could have him each day of her Life. She wished she could wake up ...

Then there came a evening where they walked hand in hand, along the beach. Their Love was too surreal for them to believe. They held no apprehensions being close, he held her hand tightly, as if he just never wanted to let go. There was a fire burning within them, to be with each other, to be for each other. That fire would either make them pure, or destroy them completely. Sitting on the rocks, under the pale moon light, they lay in each others arms. The sound of the crashing waves and the cool winter breeze only brought them closer. They whispered sweet nothings in each others ear, only to realize that they both were driven by the same passion, so hard to explain. He let his control slip, and she gave in. He embraced her with all the Love that was pent up inside him all these years. And she felt shivers run through her body. It was a magical touch that she had never before experienced. He hugged her even tighter, so tight she could hardly breathe. She felt safe in his arms, and his...

Love was blossoming in both hearts. She was ecstatic that she had found someone who could match her on the same wavelength. When they walked together, she could feel him protecting her. When he held her hand for the first time while crossing the road, she never wanted to let it go. He showed the same craziness like her. She would laugh with him like she had never laughed before. And she started believing in Love, one more time. She trusted him more than she ever did to anyone. He was equally happy to have her beside him. He knew she was lonely and he wanted to always make her smile. He answered all her silly questions, managed to go through her mood swings. He wanted to spend more and more time with her, know her and untangle her life. They met on their common offs. He would always want to meet her early, so that they could spend some more time together, even if that meant sleeping for just a couple of hours. And she would always expect him to ask her out, and she would immediately s...

Sameer and Sonia are colleagues. He is a successful person at the top of his profession. He is also a kind hearted person. Sonia ,on other hand, is a naïve girl who has recently joined a male dominated field, she is an introvert and doesn’t speak much. Both of them don’t speak a lot in the formative months of her joining, but as destiny had it, they hit it off really well once they started interacting. For her, he was a very helpful colleague, she admired him and respected him. And for him, she was a confused girl who wouldn't open up. She called him every time she was stuck in a situation at work, she was sure that no matter what, he was the one who would always help her. And he always did it gladly. Soon the friendship grew, and they started chatting all day over the phone. She started liking him a lot. He came to know that she wasn’t really an introvert, she talked and talked and talked. She told him every little thing that happened during the day, and he would always listen w...

Its strange how sometimes we find happiness in the simplest of things. Anyone whose visited nature early in the mornings knows what i am talking about. I sometimes go to National Park for a morning walk, and i could describe it in two words, pleasant and beautiful. Walking in the land of greens, dreaming under an open sky and feeling the cool breeze past you. Its a sight so rare in a metropolitan like Mumbai. My heart looks forward to these quaint early morning walks. I am not much of an early riser, but whenever i am awake in the wee hours of the morning i make it a point to wear my joggging shoes and rush to the National park, presicsely at the break of dawn. I find the transition from darkness to light so so beautiful, its mesmerising. Its a shade of violet and it changes every moment. Colors make me happy and early mornings are a true kalaiedoscope. On reaching national park, i let the soft first rays of sun fall on my face. It feels warm in the chilly weather. Its a sight so...

Each year, during the end of the year i think about making New year Resolutions. I remember making them when i was in school. I would think about becoming a better person, making others smile, sleep less and study more, and never to cry. Well, i must say, i could never stick to my resolutions even for 10 days, let alone an entire year. And i did not have a single friend who would stick to thiers either! Its only a tradition to make New year Resolutions, there's hardly anybody who actually keeps it. As far 2011 goes, it wasnt a mile stone or anything like that for me. It just zipped past me. There was nothing spectacular about it. I started this year wid Jet, and i must say i wasnt all gaga about it but i look at it as only a beginning. There were times i felt really lonely very very lonely, and there was no one around i could talk to. There were somethings about my work place that i really did not like but i had to be a mere spectator. I really would like to change my attitude t...