Like Tears in the Rain...

My Life is so so miserable....der jus seems no end to my troubles......or is it dat im jus not able to handle my own problems.....i don understand wat to do.....wer to go.....whom to tok to.....i feel so helpless......da only thing i knw to do in such circumstances....is to lock myself in my room....n go to sleep......n i don bother getting up for hours n hours......wich goes upto......50...... Y cant i jus die.....y cant i jus b killed.....sumwer....by sumone......instead of dos poor ppl gettin killed in accidents.....terror attacks.....y cant it b me......y cant i sleep forever.... Well....da truth is ...im jus too weak.....to take criticism.......to handle failure.......somhow i jus cant think logically once something doesnt go according to my plan.....i jus go deeper into da shit......i jus get too depressed to think wisely.......is it jus me......or is dis normal...... I am 23 now......n almost all my dreams r unfulfilled......everthings a mess.....n for sum reason....i feel to...

Well.....i m new to da Blogging World....n i dont quite knw wat to write.....ok lemme write about my Bestest frnd....wum i lost touch wid.......im writting abt him cuz i keep thinkin abt him almost all da time......but jus dont hav da courage to call him up (actually i deleted his number in anger n i tried several combinations but turned out to be wrong numbers!) or to go to his place n hug him tight n tell him how much i miss him n how dearly i love him..... V wer chaddi buddies....in da sense v ve known each other since v wer kids......hes a year elder to me......as far as i remember....i alws liked him.....jus alwz....wen i ws in Sr KG.....wen i was in 4th std.......i don remember a time i thot he was not perfect.......i liked him so much.....i guess he knew dat i really liked him....wen v wer like in 7th o 8th.....but he neva did reciprocate to my feelings........n i was obviously hurt...... Den v wen to college ....n he shifted to another city........he came to my place wenevr...