Like Tears in the Rain...

Bye bye 2011! What a crazy year it's been for me. I can't believe it's already December - the beginning of the end of yet another year. The last 10 months have gone by in the blink of an eye. It was the year of new beginnings. It was a roller-coaster ride though. There were times i hit an all time low, and there were times i felt Life was truly beautiful. I havent exactly achieved what i wanted, but atleast i have begun! Just hoping that 2012 brings along with it opportunities that i could grab. I really want to come out of my cocoon and discover the real me. I hope i can get the enthusiasm and the zest back that i once had. Life is meant to be lived fully. we're only humans to make errors and mistakes, but it would be wise if we could correct ourselves as soon as possible. Life's not easy, it never was, and never will be! Met new people, fell in and out of Love. Whatever it was, no regrets! Had some very beautiful moments, which i dont think i could ever forget...

I hav dis frnd, n hes da bestest in da world......hes dis awesum human being....da best dat i knw....im not sayin dis jus for da heck of it....but im sayin it cuz i really mean it! hes alwz alwz been der for me..... We  wr in da same college....i ws da only gurl in r class.....n he was an introvert.....i remember tokin to him for da first time.....i had sum difficulty wid Engineering Drawing n he ws a pro at it.....i asked for help....n he obliged......i ws so impressed dat i took his number :) he ws alws dis sweet fella.....i alws felt so comfortable wid him....he ws sch a gentleman.....but i neva thot dat v wud grow up to becum sch gr8 frnz..... I m an Arian (Hindu Calender) & a Leo.......both r fire signs......n dat makes me a red headed gurl.....n i had plenty of fyts wid my classmates...n i had fyts wid him as well.....but he ws so patient wid me....n so willin to understand my point of view......he ws neva angry wid me......i guess i ws his first female...

Well i' ve been working in Jet Airways in the Engineering department for quite some time now. I was also a Trainee here in Jet right after i did college. Jet Airways is the leading Airlines in India and also one of the best in the world, it has always been my Dream airline to work with; but what dissappoints me the most is the salary structure that Jet Airways offers to its employees. It really saddens me, Jet Airways is a tough Paymaster, its all done in the name of Recession that had hit in 2008. The company had freezed its recriutment, which hit us very badly especially my batch since we passed out in that very year, it had also terminated some of the employees which i believe was very unfair. The company expects its employees to be with it through thick and thin, doing unpaid overtime and things like that but when the time came for the company to take care of its employees, all Jet did was to throw people out that wasnt really something that people expected from a company like ...

Well....i guess i wud jus like to write something about my Frnz....i ve alws considered myself Lucky as far as my frnz go.....i neva had a sibling......so i wud alws bank on my frnz for everything....for comfort....for love......understanding.....jus about everything....my frnz wer my family.....n i ve alws cherished them....da First friend dat i had ws a girl in my building......we wer both of da same age...went to da same school......in da same class......we wer also best frnz for some time.......n we wer also fierce competitors in studies at school.....v both wer alws compared by r mothers.....n i guess it was this competition of excellence dat made us drift apart......but im glad dat happened n v r no more frnz....cuz she jus wasnt my type.....she ws dis shrewed kind of a gurl.....n i cud neva really get along wid her.....im happy shes out of my Life....for da best... People say we mus choose r frnz wid gr8 care....n it is rightly said so.....Frnz do play an important role in moul...

Theres dis girl at my office....n i end up tellin her almost everything about myself.....like everything.....wat i think bout my colleagues......wat i really feel about sum of my frndz......she quitely listens to everything n occasionally gives an honest reply.....but well....sometimes i feel.....is she truly my friend....shud i tell her wat i tell her....like all my secrets......is she someone wu can be trusted.....well....i really dunno da answer....given dat she is Best frnd wid one of my enemies! i end up tellin her everything cuz shes da only one wuz available.....i ve got no siblings.....best frnz r all busy in thier own lives.....jus don knw wum to tok to.....i m so confused all times....really need to tok to jus sumone to sort things out....n it ends up to b her..... well.....n as far as she goes....i knw nothing abou her.....she keeps chattin all day wid someone over da phone....but neva wud she lemme knw wu dat person is......not dat i ask her.......i mean....if v wer reall...

My Life is so so miserable....der jus seems no end to my troubles......or is it dat im jus not able to handle my own problems.....i don understand wat to do.....wer to go.....whom to tok to.....i feel so helpless......da only thing i knw to do in such circumstances....is to lock myself in my room....n go to sleep......n i don bother getting up for hours n hours......wich goes upto......50...... Y cant i jus die.....y cant i jus b killed.....sumwer....by sumone......instead of dos poor ppl gettin killed in accidents.....terror attacks.....y cant it b me......y cant i sleep forever.... Well....da truth is ...im jus too weak.....to take criticism.......to handle failure.......somhow i jus cant think logically once something doesnt go according to my plan.....i jus go deeper into da shit......i jus get too depressed to think wisely.......is it jus me......or is dis normal...... I am 23 now......n almost all my dreams r unfulfilled......everthings a mess.....n for sum reason....i feel to...

Well.....i m new to da Blogging World....n i dont quite knw wat to write.....ok lemme write about my Bestest frnd....wum i lost touch wid.......im writting abt him cuz i keep thinkin abt him almost all da time......but jus dont hav da courage to call him up (actually i deleted his number in anger n i tried several combinations but turned out to be wrong numbers!) or to go to his place n hug him tight n tell him how much i miss him n how dearly i love him..... V wer chaddi buddies....in da sense v ve known each other since v wer kids......hes a year elder to me......as far as i remember....i alws liked him.....jus alwz....wen i ws in Sr KG.....wen i was in 4th std.......i don remember a time i thot he was not perfect.......i liked him so much.....i guess he knew dat i really liked him....wen v wer like in 7th o 8th.....but he neva did reciprocate to my feelings........n i was obviously hurt...... Den v wen to college ....n he shifted to another city........he came to my place wenevr...