Life sucks!

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My Life is so so miserable....der jus seems no end to my troubles......or is it dat im jus not able to handle my own problems.....i don understand wat to do.....wer to go.....whom to tok to.....i feel so helpless......da only thing i knw to do in such circumstances....is to lock myself in my room....n go to sleep......n i don bother getting up for hours n hours......wich goes upto......50......

Y cant i jus die.....y cant i jus b killed.....sumwer....by sumone......instead of dos poor ppl gettin killed in accidents.....terror attacks.....y cant it b me......y cant i sleep forever....

Well....da truth is ...im jus too weak.....to take criticism.......to handle failure.......somhow i jus cant think logically once something doesnt go according to my plan.....i jus go deeper into da shit......i jus get too depressed to think wisely.......is it jus me......or is dis normal......

I am 23 now......n almost all my dreams r unfulfilled......everthings a mess.....n for sum reason....i feel totally hopeless......its as if....my dreams wer only meant to b dreams.....der is nothing dat i evn do to make dem come true....nothin inspires me.....nothing makes my heart beat fast...i already feel so dead......is Life meant to b so disgusting......i had an xam today......n it was a crucial xam for my career.....n i skipped da xam....y......cuz i ws not prepared.....bullshit!.......i m impossible......i wan to dump myself somwer.......go sumwer.....to sum faraway place......i jus wanna run away......

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